Ahhhhh… the spiritual journey. The road to self-discovery, conscious living, awareness, awakening. It is a choice you make and there comes a certain point where you can never turn back. Suddenly you know too much, realize you know nothing, need to know more, and sometimes wish you didn’t know there was so much to know. It is exhilarating, scary, challenging, painful, exciting, exhausting, and beautiful all at the same time. It is a path you choose, although at some point you realize the path has chosen you.
My “conscious” spiritual journey began close to fifteen years ago when I discovered Buddhism. I read a book titled Awakening the Buddha Within by Llama Surya Das. It changed my life and set me on a course that I never expected. I have spent years absorbed in books by such masters as Louise Hay, Don Miguel Ruiz, and Gary Chapman to name a few. I have attended lectures and workshops with Marianne Williamson and Mastin Kipp. I have studied the yoga sutras of Patanjali, attended retreats, and received many certificates allowing me to help others through my own spiritual journey. I have also done a lot of inner work through various methods, going inside to heal myself, knowing that this is the ultimate way to heal the world.
The interesting part about internal work for me is that I tend to go in and out of it. Maybe this is true for many of you? I dive in full force, through whatever means I am exploring at the time. I work hard, grow, heal and then I need space from it. I exit from this space and move forward, living my life with newly created tools and a higher sense of wisdom. After awhile, the time comes around again that I am ready to dive back in and the process begins again. Even though I know that at times the process will be painful, the excitement builds to uncover more and expose new layers in need of healing. I have learned, as many of you I am sure have, that on the other side of pain is great lightness and freedom.
I write this now as I prepare to dive back in, ready to meet whatever is waiting to be revealed. I write with excitement and wonder at all that will be uncovered and sit daydreaming about the person I will be after this round of internal work. For me, this is one of the ways in which I fall in love with myself over and over again. Learning more and more about the beautiful being that I am so that I am able to walk my truth, being the light that I have been created to be.
What has your spiritual journey been like? Do you have nay words of wisdom to share?