I watched a really amazing movie recently called The Perks of Being a Wallflower, a movie I highly suggest you all watch. It is an emotional, inspiring, and real story about a group of high school students who come together in authentic support of one another. These “unpopular” kids provide each other with the strength to be who they are, stand in their truth, and have the courage to truly live. Though there are many other layers to this movie as well, I want to write about this and the way it has been awake up call for me in my own life.
As with any good movie, I found that immediately something deep within me was responding. I was quickly connecting with my own life experiences of growing up, and even the person I am today. I found that I was able to realize certain parts of me that I had abandoned or pushed down because of being afraid of what others might think, afraid of not being loved and afraid of being alone. I can remember so many times throughout my life when I would hold myself back, pretend to think something I didn’t, or act a certain way to be accepted. These moments never felt good, robbed me of self-confidence, and had a lasting effect.
As I grew into my adult years I was definitely able to find my unique self somewhat and slowly began to find my way to my truth. Even though my confidence grew and I began to trust in my sense of self, I still found that I placed a very high importance on what others thought and felt about me. There were parts of me that I never let free and after many years of living this way, found that I came to a point where I didn’t really know who I was. I woke up and thought, who am I and how did I end up living this life? Since that moment, I have made some very big changes in my life and as a result, have faced sadness, doubt, fear, and uncertainty. I have focused my strength on healing and embracing myself fully, learning about the me that I abandoned for so long.
And so, this is my story right?
This is who I am, where I come from, and defines the life I live and will live, right? For a while I think I believed these statements to be true. On some level, I got stuck in the story of where I have been and the emotion that has led up to where I am now. I think that at times we might all get caught up in our stories, allowing who we were and where we have been to define who we are and where we are going. Allowing our stories to prevent us from having the courage to live authentically and fully in the present moment of today. It’s almost like we somehow use our past as an excuse as to why we arte unable to be happy or successful, unable to fall in love or find new friendships, unable to simply embrace our unique self.
What I have come to realize is this is not the case at all. No matter where we have been and what we have felt, we can be whoever and whatever we want to from this moment on. It is all a choice within our power, we simply have to find the courage to let go and not allow our story to hold us back from living. Our stories are tools, not definitions. They provide us information and wisdom to access when necessary as we journey forward. We need to put our stories in their proper place and free ourselves up to live!
Join me in letting go and claiming freedom.
I am not my story.
Where I have been does not define where I am going.
I have the courage and the power to make the choice to be the person I intend to be today.
It’s time to live!!!!