If you think about it, most people don’t ever actually intend to negatively affect another person. We are all simply working our process in this universe in the best way we know how. We all have different life experiences and therefore different triggers to the things that hurt us or cause us pain. There is no way that we could ever know that something we might do will hurt another or cause them pain as we have not lived their life and had their experiences. Or can we?
As we build relationships with people we get to know things about them. We learn their likes, dislikes, goals, and dreams. Which means that after awhile, we also learn their triggers, the things that cause them hurt and pain. At this point doesn’t it become our responsibility to remain aware of this information and allow it to serve us in minimizing the hurt we cause within our relationships?
I do know that we are all responsible for our own feelings as feelings are very personal and based in specific past experiences. It is up to us to work through our past pains and heal within ourselves so that we have as few of these triggers as possible, if that is what we choose to do. I understand all of this yet still struggle with the idea that accountability and ownership does not stop within our self. Is it repeated hurts that make the intention less sincere? Is it a person knowing a trigger and proceeding in that direction anyway? Or is it simply a lack of true sincerity, blaming the intention with ease?
I am not sure that I have the answer to any of the questions I pose here. I know that I intend to be witness to myself and try to understand the process that occurs when my actions negatively affect another or when another’s actions negatively affect me. I want to attempt to distinguish between the times when referencing the intention feels like an excuse versus when it feels like a sincere explanation.
I ask you all to help me understand this struggle I am having with intention. I challenge you this month to be conscious of your interactions with others in which you negatively affect or are negatively affected by another. Take note of how the sincerity feels and the reasons why. Is the intention behind someone’s actions truly the most important aspect of behavior or are there other aspects that need to be considered? I look forward to hearing your thoughts, experiences, and discoveries.